Realization

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Blogging, many people have been blogging regarding travel tips, fashion etc.


but maybe i would want to do something different.

Basically i was inspired by a friend would wrote on her blog and i thought like:" Hey, maybe i should start one too." But i was constantly lazzzzzzzzy.
 
Nothing too personal, i just think that life is so different. Most people live their lives in their comfort zone. Only a few would take a leap of faith to go outside their comfort zone.

Most of us live vicariously, it means that you experience something indirectly, maybe through the experiences of your friends and all that. It's sad, it's sad we can't experience things and feelings first hand.

Living out of your comfort zone is not easy, and what i'm trying to say is more like an abstract thing. It means stop seeking for the approval of others, stop doing things to please other people, stop living hoping that you're getting a one way ticket to happiness.
 
To quote it, carpe diem sums it up, it tells us to seize the day.

A lot of people think that happiness is getting something they have been setting their eyes on for a long time, getting an expensive gift, receiving compliments from people. Little did they know happiness is something from within.


Happiness is a mindset, so does sadness. So maybe you should stop thinking that you need a particular thing. Because truthfully, a lot of things are just wants, not needs. Sounds like Economics.

In the past, my eyes were fixated on one thing. I think i can survive without anything but it. I think it completes me. But it does eats me up, it destroys me so well that i didn't notice the damage it has done to me. And that's it, you often hear people telling you their life is so empty.

You couldn't be bothered. But at the one moment, you know how emptiness feels like. It feels like you don't know where you're heading, it feels like you're just surviving but not really living. Later on,  i categorize it as depression. Like, literally depressed.

The smile i plastered on my face, HAHA it's so fake i feel like the next moment i want to hide myself in the toilet and just let lose. That's how i really feel, Everything i'm portraying is fake, but i'm naturally normal on the outside.

There're five stages of loss and grief
1. Denial and isolation
2.Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance

The first four, you would be pretty familiar with it, but it's true not everyone reaches stage 5.

I'm gonna tell you this, i spent a bloody long time to get to stage 5. You don't get out of sadness in a day, but you could get happy by just receiving something in a short period of time.

The first thing you gotta do is to accept imperfections in your life. You have to stop living in denial, You have to stop convincing yourself into something that is not going to happen.

Strategizing is not easy. You may feel completely OK for a few days, then out of the blue you start to hesitate, you doubt your capabilities, you're no longer you anymore. It's like going to therapy consistently and religiously, but once your confidence gets battered, you just want to give up.

Life is not easy, but it's worth living. It's worth looking past the sorrows and disappointment. And the only way to appreciation is through pain itself. You only know how capable you are when challenges bestowed upon you.

We're living in the age of wonky moral compass, and if there's anyone you want to believe, it's yourself. We're living in a world were we're taught to be good to others and always give, but in my opinion, my happiness is the centre of it all. Because i can't live a life to fulfill the dreams of others. I will chase after my dreams, i will do whatever i like, because one day, we're all return to bones and dust, hence i feel like if i'm doing what i'm passionate about, my life would be complete.

We're all young, but it's how you define your life that really matters. Some people live their whole lives not capable of voicing out their opinion, i think that is not a life worth living. You don't live under the wings of others, and you should never be another person's shadow. You're you, you don't live to be a submissive to your parents, boss etc. That's a life i would envisage.

Stop wearing a mask so long and forget who you were beneath it. I'm all for individuality and expressing yourself through different ways and mediums. Stop being a stereotype and then labelling other people. Live your life and be happy.

I was once told that change is self-realisation. I've changed. I'm a different person now, but I'm still me.

I.

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